As addicts and alcoholics, we have a tendency to overreact to almost anything that comes our way. It is no wonder that we do this—throughout our drinking and/or using careers (and yes, it is a career), just about every bump in the road has seemed like a major event, so it would be only natural for us to treat all things in such a way. The problem is that when we are no longer mired in the alcoholic madness when we get sober, we still treat everything that way.
Alcoholic Madness Post-Sobriety
Thank God for serenity! Without it, we would be lost for sure.
Before we got clean and sober, we had no one else to rely on except for our disease—the very same disease that brings us to ruin. Funny, then, how things never seemed to work out.
Today, though, in the rooms of recovery, we have numerous tools to deal with the situations that happen in everyday life, if we choose to use them. We are always free to not call our sponsors, not work with newcomers, not go to meetings, not participate in the Fellowship, not read the Book, not work on our step work…
Today, all those tools are available to us if we do the necessary footwork. Of course, alcoholics and addicts have a natural inclination towards wanting to do things their way, so it isn’t terribly surprising when they don’t actually use those tools.
However, it usually doesn’t take long for the alcoholic madness to kick into gear, and send us to a place that can actually be worse than our drinking and using! Most of us cry “Uncle!” when the pain gets to be too great, agreeing to once again turn it over to our Higher Power, but there are those too who refuse. Sadly, those cases rarely end well.
We have plenty of excuses why we know better, but just like our chemical intakes, that always seems to have little bearing on how things come to pass. The alcoholic madness is never that far away, especially when start to think we have some answers of our own. Trying to fix a problem caused by an alcoholic mind is rarely if ever solvable by way of another alcoholic mind. We have plenty of proof of that.
Yet it seems that many of us go through this stage at one time or another—sometimes more than once. What we need to remember is that the tools and the help are there if we want them. We just have to get out of our own way.